Lord, I'll wait on you.....

I don't know if you've ever felt as if God would never come or not, but I just want to encourage you to just WAIT ON HIM. Though I have many things that I'm waiting on, one thing in particular that I'm seeking his face about is that which concerns whomever my *future* husband may be. Now-a-days some 20 something year old single ladies (and even older) feel as if it is almost impossible to just sit here and wait on God to send their husbands---when in actuality, they CAN do it. There is so much going on and so many diseases that are killing us everyday that its almost scary to even want to have a sexual relationship with someone other than your husband. And even with your husband or wife, its seems as if you almost have to take precautions because adultery & divorce are both real and happen to millions of people. I see things totally different. Yes, I have been in a few relationships at which I've hurt and have gotten hurt and yes, I have been surrounded by people who are on the verge of divorce and have problems in their relationships/marriages, BUT....I still believe that God WILL grant me the desires of my heart if my ways are pleasing to him.

Some people cannot see the light at the end of a dark tunnel because they've been deadened with negativity, unhealthy relationships, and blinded by negativity for way too long. Just because every relationship that such and such has been in didn't work, doesn't mean that mine won't work. Just because you've been in an abusive relationship, doesn't mean that every relationship will be that way. Many of us forget that everything God allows has purpose behind it, therefore, God may be allowing people to fall back into bad relationships because he's trying to get their attention to show them that its a MUST they consult with him first on everything. Going through pain, suffering, emotional and physical distress, and being depressed each and every day is NOT God's will for us. Many of the things we encounter are brought on by ourselves because we did not seek God's face FIRST and then WAIT patiently on him to answer. If we did, he would have told us that Boonsheka/Mary Beth & Lil' Ray Ray/Johnny were not who he designed us to be with. But because we wanted to do our own thing & be disobedient, consequences followed our actions.


So I said all of that to say this, even when you feel your lowest and as if God has forgotten about you, I encourage you to hang in there and continue to wait on him as if your life depended on it. Don't give up in the fight. Even though evil is always present, I know without a shout of a doubt that God is preparing, molding, and shaping my husband to be who God specifically needs him to be for me. I know he's looking for me and I surely want to be found. Yes, I'm human and it does get frustrating sometimes because I consider myself to be more than a wonderful catch, but I'm also reminded that because of that, God won't allow me to be with just "no anybody" because I deserve better. Amazing things take time to carefully construct, and the same goes with things and people. I don't want anything prematurely, but only when God is ready to give it to me. With that being said Lord, I'll continue to wait on you knowing that everrrrrrrything I've gone through will certainly be worth it in the end. Thanks in advance God for what you're about to do & the husband you're about to send me :-)

A guy I know said that God was creating an imperfect man, perfectly for me! I love that!!!!