1:00 a.m ramble, thoughts, & venting session ........

*Yawns*.... \0/

This has been a busy, exciting, frustrating, nerve-wracking, emotional, thought-provoking, encouraging, confusing, happy, peaceful, stressful, and eventful week for me so far. Before this Sunday is over with, I will have conquered some fears, stepped out on faith, pushed myself past what I thought were my limits, and trusted in God even more than I ever have before. I've been so busy lately that I haven't even given God a solid 30 minutes of my time just to spend with him with no distractions- no facebook -no email- no phone or t.v., no nothing. I know I will be doing that very soon and taking another hiatus from alot of things and people. Sometimes things become just too much to handle and you need to go to God in sincere prayer. I've been thinking and praying about my purpose alot lately as well. I really just want to live a fulfilled life that God will be pleased with. Nothing and no one else really matters anymore.

Besides taking a look at myself, I've also observed the actions of others (no judgment cast). It amazes me how much "we" claim to love and know Jesus, yet only deal with certain people when there are many who are hurting but yet are overlooked. One of my prayers is that I be sensitive to the silent cries of those I see everyday as well as those who I don't. One thing I try my very best to do is make everyone feel comfortable and welcomed to come to me about anything. I treat people with the utmost respect and kindness, unless you cross me......and then the only thing I have left for you is my respect & love- nothing else. When I get certain feelings about certain people, I always go to God first and ask him to show ME, ME in the situation before any further thoughts, assumptions, & decisions are made because I never want to point the finger at others when it could actually be ME. Once he's done that and those "feelings" are still there, I try to shake them for a 2nd, 3rd, 4th, etc. time. But if they remain there, then I know the spirit of discernment has kicked in full force and its time to distance myself from them. I'm really becoming better in that area and accepting the things that God is showing me both in my natural and spiritual eyes. So I just pray that God remove those who are against me out of my life and add those who are for me to it. Ain't nobody got' time for dat'... O_O

*Sighs*

I really didn't have much to say in this post. My bed is calling for my body, lol, yet I have alot on my mind. I won't lie, my faith is REALLY being tested right now but I praise God in advance for the victory! I wanted to get in a rut earlier this week and start feeling sorry for myself....yadda....yadda....yadda....BUT I immediately had to think about the goodness of Jesus & start praising God. You see, things could be much worse. But as long as there is a God who sits high & looks low, then we don't have anything to worry about. That comforts me so much because Lord knows if it had not been for him that was on my side, I don't know where I'd be or what I'd be doing!!!! Thank God for his mercy & grace.

*Yawns* \0/

Well, I guess that's it guys, lol. Pray for me as I continue to pray for you.

ROMANS 8:28- "For all things work for the good of those who love the Lord and are called according to his purpose"....

BE ENCOURAGED! #noweapon....IT IS SO! I speak LIFE in the Name of Jesus! PEACE!