At that particular time, I was literally listening to the instrumental beat of SWAG SURFIN' by Fast Life Yungstaz....lol!!!! Hmmmm, why in the HECK is SHENINA BROWN listening to a "RAP" song? Hmmmm....because I WANT TO, lol. No disrespect to anyone, but I know that questions/opinions like this arise in the minds of more people than you know. Yep, I STILL love God, yep- I STILL live righteously, and YESSS- I can still serve God & draw people to him! Christians must be able to relate to many people, both young and old alike. I personally like the beat & at the time, I was straight feeling myself, hehehe. Now though music carries a "spirit", be mindful of the things you do & thoughts you think after listening. I was just bobbing my head & enjoying my thoughts at the time, which is the reason for this particular post.....
Ok, now back to what I posted on fb. Man, at this point in my life, I realize that I have realllllllly tried to be the better person in almost every situation I've encountered. I've met many wonderful people, done some great things, and have had amazing experiences.....BUT, I can no longer bend over backwards, forwards, and sideways for people that don't care about me. Well how do you know they don't care Shenina? I'm so glad you asked: I know they don't care because of their ACTIONS! We know God loves us because of his actions (blessings, strength, joy, etc.) that we see everyday. When you love someone, they will know it because your actions will show it. I'm tired of "liking" everyone only to be overlooked. Now don't get me wrong, I sincerely LOVE all of my brothers and sisters in Christ, but some of "us" are something SERIOUS! We only encourage & support who we want to, we only say what we want to, to whom we desire to, and we only care enough to go beyond our call of duty to those that can do the same for us. ITS YOUR WORLD dude or dudette, lol, but please know that what you do will come back around one day.
There are alot of things I've noticed about people that I don't speak on. Even the most spiritual, uplifting, and encouraging people can sometimes be the biggest hypocrites because we are one-sided. I understand we are all different and I don't expect you, you, or you to give me back what I give you, but show me that you care...show me that you appreciate me....just show me something. Gosh, some people won't even give you credit for the things that you do, and thats OKAY too!
I guess you can call this another rambling, venting session.....lol. But if I don't love and take care of myself, who else will? God will of course, but I'm talking about my brothers & sisters that claim to love God & everyone else, yet and still when I'm in a bind you can't even help me. That's no good....lol. So, if the shoe fits- WEAR IT! I'm in no way pointing anyone out, but through my observances I realize that some people will never change. They can be the biggest giver to the meanest midget....lol. I'm not talking about those that aren't spiritually aware of their actions, I'm talking about the ones that profess day in & day out to love & care for everyone. If you can't love me, support me, encourage me just as God has/does, then....dude, you can KICK ROCKS with open toed shoes on as I SWAG SURF awayyyyyyyy......lol! As for me, I'll continue sincerely loving the heck out of YOU regardless of how you feel about me....
WOOOO SAAAAAA....lol.
Thanks for reading :-)
This couldn't have come at a better time in my life. Thanks for sharing
ReplyDeleteThank you so much lady! I apologize for responding an entire two weeks later, but I'm glad that you could relate to this. I am the type of person to ALWAYS want better for everyone, but sometimes it can become overwhelming when you want more for others than they do for themselves. When you pour so much into them and don't get anything poured back into you in return, it becomes hecka draining. But through it all, we must continue to remain humble, seek God, and take it one day and step at a time. :-)
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