I secretly cry at the thought of you not being in my life. Not because of what you've done for me, but simply because of who you are to me. I know that having you may not be good for my health, and as the saying goes, too much of anything is bad for you...but I beg to differ. YOU are what I long for. YOU are what I desire. You don't show me the attention I'm worthy of receiving, but that's ok because even if I cross your mind, that's enough for me. Why is it so hard for me to let go of you, knowing that you are toxic? I know I deserve better, but a part of me cannot fathom life without you. Why must you make me feel this way? Why must tears come out of my eyes? Why must I continue looking at my phone thinking that you'll come through, yet you never do? I could be doing and thinking about a million things, but YOU are on my mind. The one person I thought would be there forever and show some kind of sign that you're still interested. I'm only good enough or interesting enough to talk to whenever you "want" something.....even though I know this, I continue to give. I'm getting better at moving on, but letting go of YOU is a hard thing to do.
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