OPERATION TRANSFORMATION: Coming soon!

I'm getting older. No really, I'm getting older by the minute and time nor life waits on no one! The more I think about what I'm "not" doing, the more time is passing me by and the less time I have to accomplish some goals. I still have at least 2-3 (or more if the Lord says the same) things I would like to accomplish before 2012 is over, and a plethora of goals for as long as the Lord blesses me to live...... and the half year mark is almost here. Lately, I've just been cooling it, taking a chill pill, and thinking about where God wants me to be in my life. I am proud of myself for what he has blessed me to accomplish, but I still feel as if something is missing and that there is more that I should be doing. Between working on my PhD, ministry, getting back into the swing of things with my business, encouraging women through both my personal and The SHE |in| ME (Encouragement for Women) page on facebook, and trying to be the best sister, friend, etc. that I can be.......one would think I have enough on my plate, but I beg to differ, lol! There are still some young people out there who need encouraging, some women and men who need to be inspired & motivated to keep going, and family, friends, etc. who need saving. I'm far from perfect, but I want to be used by the Lord in EVERY area of my life, even with my imperfections in tact.

I want BETTER, and I'm quite alright with that :-)

I've been doing a bit of soul searching as well and I'm trying to decipher what is the best route for me to take towards a spiritual, mental, physical, emotional, and financial MAKEOVER---literally from head to toe. In one of my previous posts (click HERE to read), I mentioned that I knew it was time for a change in my life. I'm almost 30 years old and I don't want to live the next 30 years of my life unhappy, complacent, content, and paralyzed by fear among so many other things. I want to live freely, love freely, give freely, and just be my best self wholeheartedly. I am preparing myself for my husband, but even before he comes I want to have enjoyed "MY" life by "MYSELF" first and because of that, I cannot continue on as I am now. Don't get me wrong, God is and has been mighty good to me and I bless him for what he's done, but I also know that he requires more of me and that there is MORE for me to do. I don't want to limit God to a box. If I want it, I can have it....point.blank.period.

So with these thoughts in mind, all the while trying to remain sane, focused, and level headed, lol, I will be seeking God's face more on exactly how he would have me to transform into a BETTER, BIGGER, & BADDER, Shenina. I want to be fearLESS. I want to be FREE. I desire to be more outgoing, sociable, POWERFUL, caring, loving, giving, hard-working, encouraging, and discerning. I want to look better, feel better, think better, and even sound better, lol. I just want more for ME. I'm getting teary eyed right now just thinking about the transformation I'm about to embark upon. I know the journey won't be simple, but I will stick to it. I won't give up and I won't quit prematurely. God desires more from both you and I, and its up to US whether we want to receive the blessings he has in store. Its time out for mediocrity but its time in for moving up higher. I can't worry about what people will say, how they will feel, or even how they will accept the decisions I'm about to make. I want my relationship with God to become closer than ever before and I simply desire to be all who he has called me to be. Operation Transformation is about to begin shortly! I will be sure to document the journey and keep everyone posted.

Have any of you ever done something such as this or have you been thinking about it? Feel free to share your thoughts :-)

For whatever reason, the song RAIN ON US by Earnest Pugh fell fresh in my spirit while typing this post. I am about to listen to it in its entirety because I truly believe the Lord is SURELY going to do just that: RAIN ON ME! Glory Hallelujah!!!!!!! Yessss Lord....see, I'm about to start & go "in".....There is NOBODY GREATER than GOD! SPEAK LORD.